Living in Fear

Though the night holds my fear, I break out of the chains that bind me. I leave behind the innocence of daylight and free myself into the brisk night air. I lose my sense of anguish, I lose myself in time. The darkness swallows my soul and just for a minute I forget who I am . I remember the day, the light. It keeps me safe; seeing, knowing, having time to be myself. In the daylight I have you to keep me safe, while in the night I only have the darkness. The darkness that binds me in it's grasp, yet frees me all the same. It is a bleak and confusing time for the unknown. Though it has its tolls to pay once the light creeps back and finds me, I still have the sense that my innocence will be lost in darkness for all time. But once again, as the light approaches my eyes, I am proven wrong. I am, again, as innocent as a newborn child; yet dark inside with the knowledge of night. If I ever again fear the darkness and all that it entails, I will try to keep my mind open to fathom the truth of it all. Knowing that everyday as light hits me, I find myself, and again am bound to the fear.

Do you see the fear in the eyes of the beast in the night? The beast called darkness will never leave. Everyone will see this darkness as the light fades away. But the knowledge of the night, and the ability to capture it has been the mystery of the fear all along. If I lose myself in night, I lose all that I am. If I forget who the light makes me I will never again see the innocence or the beauty of my being. In everyway, I am the only one who can save me when the darkness grabs hold of my heart. Though my soul is hidden in the throat of the beast, my free will is still captured in the light that has left me. I free myself in the night, and lose myself under the beasts massive being. I hold tight to the darkness, for if I let go I will fall into oblivion, never to be seen in light again. I will become the one who is feared in the light, rather than being the one who fears. Though the thought of being fearless seems surreal, I know the consequences are endless.